PENGHIJRAHAN

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اَلسَّلاَ مُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ

Dengan hidayah yang diberi oleh Allah SWT, saya nekad untuk berhijrah dan mengambil keputusan untuk bertudung dan mengubah penampilan.

I know someone will doubt with my decision, tapi malas mahu fikir apa orang akan kata. It's up to them, biarlah meraka dengan tanggapan mereka tu. Kalau boleh buanglah tanggapan tu jauh-jauh dan doakan kebaikan untuk diri saya. So grateful my grandpa & grandma support and always beside me. Tapi belum lagi mendapat respon dari keluarga dan kenalan rapat.

My conscience .. want to improve myself, improve human relations and to Allah SWT. Saya melaksanakan tanggungjawap sebagai hambaNya dan kewajipan sebagai muslimah.

 

Honestly, it's been a long time I plan, niat to wearing hijab and close to Allah SWT. “Seru” ini bermula pada awal ramadhan lagi, memang tergerak hati untuk berubah, went I see a lot of friends who turn images to hijab, particularly my best friend. At the first, I just don't care… deep in my heart and plan..I’ll start it on Hari Raya Aidilfitri this year and give them..my family.. surprise with my changes. However, it's doesn't work because I’m not sure dengan niat saya tu. But I won’t give up, in the other side keiginan saya itu membuak-buak, my heart does not calm..than I try to change it slow by slow / step by step. In the end, saya nekad untuk memakainya dan perubahan ini harus diteruskan pada Sambutan Hari Raya Aidiladha nanti. In the meantime I will do slow to collect my own hijab.

However,  akibat musibah yang datang pada 11 oktober baru-baru ini amat besar untuk dihadapi. A close friend has said his intention to propose me to be his wife. A discussion was made ​​to hear the final word from me but the discussion became tense and hot as my rejection of this proposal on.. My family, all of them were angry with my decision until they produce a word that I cannot accept. I Know he’s a good man, the right choice.. but I still cannot accept any man, I'm not ready yet for this level. For me, we must believe that jodoh from Allah SWT.. I'm not sure anymore. They all put the blame on me and like to believe that I refuse because I could not resist and still hoping my-ex.. But in fact, No! I still have problems with myself, noticing my own.. I lost my self-confidence and fear of trying again after what happened before. I do not want the old stuff all over again.. I made mistake before but now I trying to fix myself and I need support from them..my family. I’m begging them..it's not easy for me. I know they love me..They care about me.. But berat mata mereka yang memandang.. berat lagi saya memikulnya..and it just happened.  Ya Allah…Ya Rabb..pinjamkan aku kekuatanMu..

I believe that, what is happening is a reminder from Allah SWT. Musibah ini telah meyakinkan aku untuk berubah terus dan seterusnya mendekatkan diri kepadaNya. I am grateful for what happened, this is the wisdom behind what happened and it has convinced me. Great gratitude through shared experience because it taught me a lot, Make me mature and better...

 

 After this "Penhijrahan", I feel closer to Allah SWT. Allah SWT gave me peace of mind that I can't says with words.
Hopefully< I will grow courageous and strong to weather anything that would happen in the future ... Fighting!!! & Be Strong!

bye..

XOXO,

Dida..

Maybelline Hello Kitty Hyper Curl X Volume Express Mascara Limited

Yesterday while I was window shopping and in to Watson
Omg..cute-nya new mascara from Maybelline... and what?? Hello Kitty lagi tu. You Know.. i'm the one yang minatkan Hello Kitty. Interesting aku tengok dengan harga promo lagi tu.. for you who like to wear mascara .. BUY laju-laju. we use equally.. Tentu kamu mahu kelihatan cantik kan dengan mata yang menggoda. Let's beautiful TOGETHER. Try it OK!!